a reflection: on drinking

“But because I’m a quick learner, I took experiences like that and applied them to how I lived my life; or how I subconsciously canvassed for acceptance. I was showing about 75 percent of the puzzle, and alcohol made it refreshingly simple to silence the remaining quarter. But the problem was that the remaining 25 percent– that was where the really good stuff was hiding. That was the pure; the delicate pieces of me and my needs that I had covered a long time ago. They were all still there, buried under lava perfectly preserved. And now with a fighting chance to be heard, they were bobbing to the surface. Little inner child zombies rising from the dead.”